Thursday, July 31, 2008

Memory Lane

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Breastfeeding and Comedy

This cracks me up! It reminds me a bit of Peyton because every time I go to nurse Aja he yells "MILK TIME!"

Friday, July 25, 2008

Ok, somone help me...

because I just can't figure it out. How do I change my background, put pictures on the side, link people?? As I've told you from the very beginning, I'm very computer dumb and I've messed around and just can't do it I tell ya!! My blog is boring looking and I need help!!!

Thursday, July 17, 2008


Kind of dorky, but fun!

You Are Pocahantas!
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Free-spirited and wise. You have a strong passionate spirit that touches and changes all who know you. The wisdom and common sense that you have is really what guides you through life. Even so, you also have a very playful side that loves adventure and excitement.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Saturday, July 12, 2008

A Test of Faith

This last month has truly been a test of my faith. This song is so beautiful and is fitting for any mother/father. It is incredibly powerful to me right now considering the trials that I am going through. The lyrics follow.

Plumb - In My Arms
Your baby blues
So full of wonder
Your Curly Que's
Your contagious smile
And as I watch
You start to grow up
All I can do is hold you tight

Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash around
But you will be safe in my arms

Story books
Are full of fairy-tales
Of kings and queens
And the bluest skies
My heart is torn just in knowing
You'll someday see
The truth from lies
When the
Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

Castles they might crumble
Dreams may not come true
Cause you are never all alone
Cause I will always
Always love you

Hey I
Hey I

When the
Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash around
But you will be safe in my arms
In my arms

Sometimes...In my life

when it rains it pours.

When Aja's diagnosis came through, I didn't do my typical "why me" thing that I usually do when something difficult comes my way. Sure, I had my moments where I broke down, but as I have educated myself and we have gotten Aja the help she needs, I feel more confident in my and her abilities to react appropriately when the time comes.

Now, I'm not so sure. This might be a little pre-mature, and I hope it really is nothing, but the Lord may have blessed us with 2 special needs kids.

Cohen, our non-talker, has now qualified for Early Intervention through the state because he is showing signs of Autism. As some of you may know he doesn't talk. He says like 4 words. Each of these words has not gotten clearer as time has gone on. So, when the evaluator came for Aja I asked her if they would send one out for Cohen, and they did. Basically she did a test with him and then asked us a bunch of questions about Cohen's behavior. When she tallied up the final "score" he basically score 0-3 months on everything with scattered skills up to 18 months. I think there was 1 thing that he showed scattered skills up to his age (27 months), but the majority was only 18 months.

I have had a lot of family members tell me that they don't think he is autistic because of how he acts around them, but the thing is is that there is such a wide array of autistic "symptoms" that there is nothing that is "classic" to diagnose the condition. That is why it's called autism spectrum disorder. Cohen's "symptoms" are: He doesn't talk (he did for awhile and then around 18 months stopped completely), he doesn't interact with children or engage in play, he doesn't really interact with Mitch and I (he's usually off by himself and if I try to engage him he shows minimal interest and then goes back to doing his own thing), loves videos (weird I know because what kid doesn't like videos! I'm going to have to ask the nurse more on this one so she can explain it better to me), short attention span, no fear of strangers and acts indifferent when a stranger comes to the house (meaning he doesn't want to show off or engage with them (isn't curious)). There are many more things that he does that have caused my "red flags" to go up.

Anyway, we will be having a lot of evaluators coming into the house and then we will see a Developmental Pediatrician that specializes in developmental disorders and can give him an "official" diagnosis. I'm praying I'm wrong...I really am. For the longest time we have just told ourselves that Cohen is stubborn and that it will happen eventually, but the other things that he exhibits have caused me to question that statement. We should know sometime at the beginning of August when I can get him into the pediatrician.

Right now I feel like hitting my head against a wall. Why?? This beautiful little boy of mine won't/can't communicate with me and it's so frustrating and heart breaking. I so looked forward to hearing his little voice as he got older. Anyway, I will write more on this as we have the evaluators come in. I'm in a dark place right now and just struggling to put on a happy face.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Aja is 1 month old!!!

Here are some pictures of Aja who turned 1 month on the 7th! Thank you Tasha for the cutie outfits she looks darling in them!

I can scream really loud. (I really don't mind becuase this means she is doing well!!)

I love my daddy!

I sleep pretty darn good.

I'm so cute!!

More cuteness!!

Baby Burrito!! (her occupational therapist recommends we keep swaddling her to help with her sleep issues. It works!)

The End.

How SuperMan Sleeps

Cohen likes to fall asleep in some pretty funky outfits and positions!


And another...


I have a housefull of super heroes!! (p.s. like my sock basket LOL!)


Kid Tag!

I got tagged by Tasha (sorry it has taken awhile) and decided to ask Peyton the questions here are his answers:

1. What is something mom always says to you? Be nice and to eat.
2. What makes mom happy? When I'm good.
3. What makes mom sad? When I don't eat.
4. How does mom make you laugh? Tickling us
5. What was mom like as a child? I don't know
6. How old is your mom? 27 (wow I'm impressed he remembered!)
7. How tall is your mom? 30 points
8. What is her favorite thing to do? Play on the computer, tickle kids and make them laugh
9. What does your mom do when you're not around? Sleeps
10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for? Money so we can buy and RV
11. What is your mom really good at? Taking care of us and cooking
12. What is your mom not very good at? Science (this is so true!!)
13. What does your mom do for her job? Work on the computer
14. What is your mom's favorite food? Pizza?? (yuck!)
15. What makes you proud of your mom? Be good
16. If your mom were a cartoon character, who would she be? A princess
17. What do you and your mom do together? Play
18. How are you and your mom the same? We have the same personality
19. How are you and your mom different? I don't know
20. How do you know your mom loves you? Because I'm good.