I'm tired. I've been thinking way too much this week. I swear every day we have something "therapy-like" going on, and to be honest, it's wearing me out. I need a vacation. Right now these are the thoughts running through my head:
How best to tell my pediatrician that I don't find him a suitable doctor for my kids and that he's screwing up big time with me left and right. You entrust someone with your child's care and he has the audacity to COMPLETELY ignore you and basically do whatever he feels like. Yah, he's a real gem.
Work. I know I need to, but it's really wearing on me. I love my job, but with everything else going on...it's so not high on my priority list right now.
I have to think about ways to get Cohen to engage with me every day. I have to work with him on using his PECS (they are little pictures that he hands me to tell me what he wants to help ease all the temper tantrums I've been dealing with lately). I guess it's better than him standing in front of the pantry or fridge screaming because I'm not grabbing the "right" thing.
Jobs. Do we stay in Logan or do we move for a better opportunity? Do I really want to uproot my kids, AGAIN? There are so many requirements that have to be met. It has to be near a children's hospital for Aja, has to have decent insurance because we can't get insurance for Aja or Cohen now, and has to have a state-funded program that we can stick Cohen into so that he can continue with the help he requires.
House..Forget about it. It's never clean and it drives me nuts. I would kill for a maid just to take over for a month.
So that is just SOME of the things I've been thinking about lately. To "run away" from all of this..I have been reading. Granted, I don't get much time to read except for when I'm nursing Aja and the limited time during naps, but I've been reading a good series. I would recommend it to anyone. I'm not usually a fan of Dean Koontz, but his Odd Thomas series is great. It's not gory, sexual or over the top with deep thoughts..It's been a nice place to "get away" every now and then.
That is all.
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2 comments:
I am so sorry to hear how stressed you've been. You are doing a great job! Where have you been working? Does Mitch enjoy working at USU? I know it's a pain to apply and interview jobs but it's always good to look and see what options could be out there - just because a job is offered doesn't mean Mitch has to take it :) Let me know if there is anything I can do for you.
You sound like you have your hands full! I hope things get better for your little family. Hang in there, and hopefully things can calm down for you a bit.
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